idk why but im still having the same issues. especially with myself. im still afraid of being myself. and cope with ppls expectation. but sooner i realize that ppls reaction were effected by past experience. yes, i did have bad experience that change who i am. first, i stopped being talkative and ive a thought of ppls will hate me. should i meet the therapist? ive been very negative i know. i dont even know being silence is not okay. its not that i did not talk at all. its just, not me. not the real me. i was fun okay? but ppl did judged me a lot. no, i mean i used to be judged so bad.