15 April 2015

idk why im posting this but ive something in my mind. i just realize that i used to have deep depression long time ago. well i thought that the depression is smtg on & off like a switch, but i just read an article bout depression. it said that theres no way for a half depression. then suggested to have a diary and compared the circumference when youre okay or not. for me, i find it make sense. and i remember how was it feel back then. it was utterly bad. real bad. i didnt think that i could laugh happily. its just a laugh then smtg hit and reminds me and im sad again. happened in just a second. i remember the reason anyway, im happy that finally i can let my sadness go. its hard when you love somthing tht will always make you sad. what im trying to say here is like woah, see, what youve been through! but at the end of the day, i learned a lot. i was glad, and really happy and thanksful for what i have now. well ppl said that, youve to go through the worst to get the best, see what i have here. hihi. it feels like, thanks for saving my life ! haha. and i pray to Allah to ease our way. he's the giver afterall. lets make it work. Amin!